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with the rain, those poor little worms have no choice but to get out of that saturated soil and make a run for it… little do they know, the birds are singing “Yay its raining, its pouring, the worms are soon to cover the flooring…” as they lick their beaks.
++clearing out some posts that were sitting in my draft box.
It’s been a busy summer, with working full time and all… I feel like I’m missing out on so much with my kids, but then again… I notice that when I’m home, they are off and away doing their own thing… their independence is growing, which is a good thing in the long run, but in this moment of reflection it’s bittersweet.
So much growing I have yet to do… so much perspective I have yet to gain… all in time I know… all in time. Funny how when I feel like I’ve just been granted insight into something, I get a bigger glimpse that shows me I have so much of a vast expanse yet to travel…
all in good time I’m reassured, all in good time.
With the increase in nearly every expense, from gas to food, to you name it… we have been mulling over the idea of disconnecting our cable tv. It would save us $50 a month, which could help in our other tighter areas. What is my need for tv anyway? The news is only negative, and or the spin on it is not always accurate, then the programs are getting worse and worse. The only thing we really love about it is the digital music channels, which I have playing all day long through the stereo speakers. But, there are other ways we could get tunes to the stereo speakers.
The winter definetly encourages more tv watching, but the summer time, geez… who has time for tv in the summer? It seems that I only turn it on in at 9pm to get the weather report and to watch the brief local news while I stitch for a minute.
Anyway… I feel bound to keeping tv for the times where ‘just in case’ I want to watch it. But what purpose does it serve? Sometimes entertainment, sometimes just distraction, and sometimes just plain avoidance because it helps me tune out other things that I probably should be focussing on.
$50 bucks a month would be the savings to unplug. That’s a little less than 1/2 of a grocery bill. It’s a struggle though. I like tv. It’s always there when you need it, and even when you don’t.
Torpedo is a girl! [EDIT: Perhaps Torpedo is still a boy. It seems that at the Vet's office, they are in argument over what Torpedo is. Some say boy, others say girl. We will find out if he lives to get older.....]
Well, isn’t that sweet? All this time we thought her a him, and now he is a she. We love her/him/it so it doesn’t matter to us, and thankfully my six year old doesn’t care either… most important to us is that this little kitty gets well. She is still at the Vet, they are watching her and waiting for a stool sample. Poor thing. I really pray the antibiotics work and that she rebounds.
She is a she! Little Torpedo is a girl…. how precious.Â
I used to blog regularly… what happened? I used to love to journal my feelings, but now I find that I don’t… so did my feelings leave me, or did I leave me, or did neither of the above happen and my ability to express myself in words just expired one day? Interesting, peculiar…. and quite frankly, sad.
Today I am here…
I’m alive and well…
still kicking and laughing, and occasionally screaming.
Sometimes I wonder if I know me anymore…
other times I feel sad that I know me all to well.
Today, I am here…
I am alive and well…
I really would like to try to express myself more here…
I don’t know quite why I don’t….
I think I forget what I could say, or what I want to say, or maybe I worry that I’m making up all that I end up saying.
But… you know what?
Today, I am here…
hi me…
hi you…
*waving inside my heart to myself that is me*
I wish I had come across this while I was a college student buying Ramen noodles in bulk. Would have been nice for some variation… check out the ways you never thought you could cook up Ramen… :Ramen Recipe Database
Two cool things to mention… one, I’m a big Clint Eastwood fan… the spagetti westerns are awesome, so, check out this site for the cool opening song to The Good, The Bad & The Ugly… click the link, click Clint’s face, click Film Music, scroll down till TGTBTU and select the first one… then turn up the volume. Think of this song anytime you need some theme music for your day or attitude. 
The next cool thing is Da Jesus Book, it’s the New Testament translated in Hawaiian Pidgen talk (slang). My step-dad is Hawaiian, so he spoke pidgen often around the house, even though he graduated with a MS from UCLA in Civil Engineering. It’s an awesome way to get another look at the Word.
Check out a couple examples:
Rom. 3:25:
Fo Da Rome Peopo 3:25: God wen make Jesus da main guy, so he can be da sacrifice for hemo da shame fo all da bad kine stuff everybody do, ony if dey go trus him and dey shua dat he wen go bleed an mahke for dem. Dass how God show dat he make everyting come right.”
Or, how about John 3:16,
John 3:16: God wen get so plenny love an aloha for da peopo inside da world, dat he wen send me, his one an ony Boy, so dat everybody dat trus me no get cut off from God, but get da real kine life dat stay to da max foeva. You know, God neva send me, his Boy, inside da world for punish da peopo. He wen send me fo take da peopo outqa da bad kine stuff dey doing.”
And if you want to know “wat da Bible say bout important stuffs” click and find out.
Sittin back today, taking it all in. Another day in the Lord, and I’m curled up on His lap. The weather is perfect outside and the kids and I have already been to the park and I expect I would be the best mom in the world if this afternoon entailed the same thing. So, guess that’s what we’ll do, I’ll put my shades on and read while they climb, slide, and giggle the afternoon away.
I have a lot of thoughts going on with God, some in divergant directions, while others are crossing paths as I understand more and more. There are some things going on that are taking shape, and although the outlook looks good, the process appears difficult. I trust fully in Him, and I will continue to do so, even in the midst of my trials, I know through Him I will persevere. I’m filled with hope and just reflecting on the things of God. I am His beloved….
Ever heard of that? That’s what my mom calls it when the man of the house starts acting moody. I guess it’s supposed to be the male equivalent to when women use the excuse(?) of hormones or pms. I don’t know. Either way, you know the reason why I bring it up. My “better half” doesn’t seem so agreeable or pleasant today. Spiritual warfare? Possibly. Memnones? Could be. The moon? Who knows. Maybe he’s feeling the sympathetic effects of Mt. St. Helen’s. You never know. Sadly, it’s when I’m so confused and mindboggled that I am least likely to pray, when in all reality, that is the first thing I should do. Pray for my dh… but I don’t know what to pray for other than to ask God to see his heart and the causes of the mood swing… and to process it with him, in a way that he finds release from whatever it is that has gripped his behavior. I can easily pray for myself, but it’s not really about me… I should really leave myself out of the equation, except for asking the Spirit to convict me of anything I may have done to contribute to the attitude.
One of those days, thankfully it’s nearly done.
*grrr….* my blogrolleth hath disappeardeth, for I hath encounterdeth a fatal erroreth.
migrane. no sleep last night to be had. today the kids are loud, too loud. now it’s nap time for them, and I’m going to close my eyes for a while. I really need to get some kind of better prescription from the dr. for this… what really works? I took “zomig” last night with no relief, and now that that’s all gone, I took “midrin” today and I’m still seeing spots and wanting to barf. I even called the chiro-cractor this morning and got in for him to adjust my neck, but to no avail. I’ve been saying prayers too….. still waiting for an answer to end the pain.
ugg…..
What happens when you:
1) have nothing to do
2) own a sharp knife
3) have a large lime
4) own a patient cat
5) drink too much tequila
6) and it’s football season?
(This was something I recieved via email, plus, my cat would never sit still for this kind of harassment and I don’t drink tequila ; )
Hysterical!!! Check this out at Reids!!! Penguins!!!!
I’m considering what I have been given, the blessing to be able to stay home and be with my kids full time in these first few years of their precious lives. I read over at Rong’s, aka “The Requiest” a post called: Working Mothers that had a verse in it that I haven’t come across before: Titus 2: 3-5 “3Likewise, teach the older women to be reverent in the way they live, not to be slanderers or addicted to much wine, but to teach what is good. 4Then they can train the younger women to love their husbands and children, 5to be self-controlled and pure, to be busy at home, to be kind, and to be subject to their husbands, so that no one will malign the word of God.”
And then, of course he mentions the “wonder woman” list of Prov. 31, which blows me away and although I’m sure God meant it as a description to encourage me, I find that after I read that I come away with the thought that I’m so lazy. Sure, I do my daily activities around the house… but I soooo don’t live up to what the Proverbial wife is.
I guess God has me in training. When I read about her I feel inspired, but tired. I see her wisdom and efforts and think, “wow, she sounds like a slave.” *gasp!*
In some surfing tonight, I came across Jen Speaks, which looks like a great blog to add to my blogroll. Something she posted stuck out, and made me laugh. Now, mind you, if I was doing the same thing as those in the video clip, I would have the same result, so I guess that’s why I laugh. I can identify. Click this link to check out:
Why Palestinians throw rocks! Don’t forget your volume when you click it too. Worth it.
Thanks Jen!
Why is it that every now and again, some kind of adware junk will come and take command of my homepage and make it appear like I like I clicked and wanted to go to a casino homepage? We run our Norton once a week, and I did the ad-aware thing this morning to try to remove the annoyance, but it still will just take over at seeminly it’s own will.
Those people are sneaky, crafty little buggars. *sigh* Now I updated Norton again and am running it to find the annoyance. How irking.
Doug at CoffeeSwirls does an awesome job of describing our Unconditional Election. Totally worth the read and study. Thanks Doug!
Reid had something I thought would be interesting to see. He posted on How do People Find Faith Gambler?, so I’m turning it into a Meme and going to post how some people find my blog, here goes:
Search words are:
planting seeds (Google)2…ice lyrics sarah mclachlan meaning (Google) 1…”stay at home” tomorrow God Jesus Mother John prayer (Google) 1…tattoo rosemary (Google) 1…jeremy camp tattoo (Yahoo) 1…”tattoo design” icthus (Google) 1… tattoo to god i love you (Google) 1…Jesus is the light painting (Yahoo) 1…”we are young” “we are holy” (Google) 1…to the light (Yahoo) 1…light proverbs (Google) 1…”Wherever you go I’ll find you” (Google) 1…words to say to a pastor who is being installed in a chruch (Google) 1…matt redman facedown lyrics (Google) 1…”you’re love is better than ice cream” lyrics (Google) 1… you’re love is sweeter than ice cream lyrics chocolate (Google) 1… metting myself in the spirit (Yahoo) 1…17 Ginny Owens – Little (Google) 1…Monica Blog (Google) 1…and i’ll fall facedown (Google)
and the most recent of search terms are:
24/08/2004 12:59:47 tattoo design wife children (Google)
24/08/2004 04:26:35 matt redman facedown lyrics (Google)
24/08/2004 00:22:03 heavenly realms (Google)
23/08/2004 18:16:01 blueberry salsa “water bath” (Google)
23/08/2004 18:13:16 “christian vs mormon” (Yahoo)
23/08/2004 11:20:10 light proverbs (Google)
23/08/2004 09:02:02 sheparding a child’s heart (Google)
23/08/2004 08:08:22 homemade “light effects” (Google)
22/08/2004 23:50:16 “crucifixion” “tattoo design” (Yahoo)
22/08/2004 23:11:41 PHOTOS OF PLANTING SEEDS (Yahoo)
mine are definetly more mellow than Reids, but hey, how can you beat “Poop on a Stick?” Impossible to do ; )
Found this Who Is This ‘Self’ Guy? over at Walking the Dogma… love the post, thoughts it generated, along with the comments. I’m posting it here because I want to reread it later & don’t want to lose the location.
Bill (aka HarryTick™) posted this:
Who Is This ‘Self’ Guy?
Then Jesus said to his disciples, “If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross and follow me.”
—Matt 16:24, NIV
What is it that Jesus expects from us here? Is it that we should take up a cross, some obscure burden or mission or ministry in order to follow him? Does he mean that we are to put everybody else first and ignore ourselves?
So much has been made of this ‘die to self, live to God’ phrase that pops up with Paul and seems to be echoed here by Jesus. I think it’s time we relooked what we’ve been told and figure out just exactly what we think it means.
I think he means that we shouldn’t put any trust in the things we do in this world to get us in good with God.
What do you think he means?
(The Comments that followed are great and they follow:)
We are back and the saying is so true that “there is no place like home.” What a joy to walk back into your own home after a long day of driving. God was faithful to have a hedge of protection around us while driving, as well as being nearby while we visited with family. Adair and Alec did really well on the long drives, and they adjusted great to the sweltering temps in Riverside and being able to sleep in beds that weren’t their own. I’m amazed at their adaptability, while at the same time I am shocked at my own appearant lack thereof. Where they adjusted well to the temps, I inwardly whined. Where they slept easily in a new bed, I tossed and turned. Where they enjoyed every moment, I found myself at times wishing I was already home. When I watch them, I really have so much to learn in how to recapture their simple way of giving attention to the moment at hand, and not other things. Their focus is so pure and undistracted, I’m wondering how I could be more like that. I am secure now that we are home and just feel so at peace here. Even though I grew up in southern Calif., it’s not my home anymore and I feel like a fish out of water while I’m there. The pace of life is so quick, the sights and sounds are so full that it fills my head with static and a constant buzz and it tires my senses. I missed seeing the bluest blue skies that I get to see everyday here, I missed my ice-cold water that I can drink out of the tap without having to put in ice cubes in it, I missed the quietness of the landscape. And, I missed my own toilet and being able to poop without feeling like I was stinking up someone elses bathroom. LOL!
Anyway, we spent all day Wed. driving, and when we arrived, we had a great visit with my brother (4 yrs. older than me) and his wife, and we shared lots of laughs, and we unloaded a ton of baby gear that will be useful when their little one comes along in January. On Thursday, my Mom came to visit us at my brothers and we just played all day at my brother’s home. On Friday, we drove to Long Beach and visited with my Mom, Step-Dad, and Grandmother, where we enjoyed a time of visiting and keeping the kids safe from my parents new dog (an 8 mo. old girl puppy that is hyper and loves to jump up). On Saturday, we went to the San Diego zoo and enjoyed the Pandas, Polar Bears, the sleepy Koala bears, and the peeing Jiraffes. Then Sunday my sister in law (an optomotrist) checked our eyes, then later Mike and I drove to San Diego for my childhood friend’s wedding, which was so beautiful and sweet, that I cried over her visable happiness. I realize how much I miss her, but am so joyous over her life and I feel called to intercession for her to find Christ in His timing.
We left to drive home on Monday, and I occupied myself during much of the drive in prayer for many different things, and the time covering the landscape along the way in talks with God really filled a need to focus on something. Although I spent time with Him in that way, I found it hard to refocus on prayer when the interruptions came along the way… I never quite know where I left off, or where to pick up again, as I don’t want to be redundant in prayer or praise to Him, but I know He knows where my heart is, so I just would often end up sitting quietly until the Spirit prompted me with another direction.
Many things to do now that we’re back…. have to find a renter for the basement, and soon, need to make some cosmetic improvements to the apartment as well, need to get the kids adjusted back to the home schedule and routine, along with tighten up on discipline again, because many things slipped while we were gone. I need to get back to reading my Bible… and I’m missing listening to praise music, so I must get some more in my head asap.
Two things I tasted while I was gone that were absolutely delicious were Nanaimo Bars (can you say YUM! in Canadian? Aie!), and then some Christmas Cookies (oh wow!). Both haunted my dreams and I had visions of having a plate of them all to myself ; ) Ohh, and I also went to Trader Joe’s and sooooo wish that we had one here in Utah. Someday I guess! : )
Smiles! : D
Well, we’ve been packing up the truck with all the goods and we’re getting ready for our drive to southern California tomorrow. We’re leaving at the crack of dawn (5am) and with the 12 expected drive, plus potty breaks, I guess we’ll arrive at my brother’s house in Riverside at 5pm-ish (time there is one hour earlier, so we’ll gain an hour). Long day expected, but I think I’ve got lots of things to keep the kids occupied while we’re on the road.
So, no blogging until early next week. The time will be nice to spend with family and friends. smiles & hugs!
Boy oh boy! Whew, is all I can say! Things are back to normal around here. Thank you Reid for your hello, I’ve actually missed blogging! What’s hysterical, is that our computer cleaned all the cookies, which meant that I had to log into Typepad again, and I guess it’s been so long since I’ve done that, that I forgot my password. Doooohhhh! I had time on Sat. eve. to blog, but I couldn’t figure out my password, then it took a while to get it in an email, by the time I got it, the time I had to blog vanished, as did my thought.
Anyway, this time away from blogging was spent getting more stuff ready for the yard sale we had on Sat. Holy Cow, can I just say that we made $594.25!!! That seems like a ton of money to me! A friend gave us a gas stove (she didn’t want to bother trying to sell it, so she offered it to us, or she was going to give it to charity…. so, I took it & cleaned it up to sell), I sold for $100, which was a big part of our grand total, then my dh sold some Yamaha stereo equipment for $80, and then everything else was just housewares, kid & adult clothes, jewelry, books, knick-nacks, yard stuff, etc. Totally amazing. Anyway, it goes to show you that God does refill the coffers many times over for the small amount in comparison that I spent for the Bible for my friend. This timing is also awesome because the amount we made is going to help us pay the difference in the mortgage because our renters are moving out on the 5th of August. It will help us cover the difference until we gain some new renters. I’m praying and trusting God to lead the perfect tenant for us, within the perfect timing.
So, that covers the profits and password, now to the ponderings…. I’ve had a lot on my mind about God. First, I went to the Opera again with a friend from church, and we watched The Secret Garden (I’m betting that you know about that one Lesa : ) you artisan you.). Anyway, while I was watching the performance, I was drawn to watching the conductor of the orchestra. Totally amazing. The woman conductor was watching both the performers, and directing from them, as well as directing them, because I could tell they were looking to her for timing cues as well. So, this got me to viewing the role of the conductor… vital, and I traveled in thought to God’s conducting. The Conductor dictates the timing, tempo, the softness or crechendo of the music. He draws in the players of different instruments, and if we are on the same page and watching or being attentive to His direction, the result is that everything will play according to His will and desire, and be a melody that is beyond beauty. But if we don’t pay attention, or rely on our own timing, we might miss the valuable cues He is drawing us into. Then as I pondered this with a friend, we also conluded that we may actually the “score” and not the individual players of instruments.
I have some more blogging that I want do on a few really good sermons that we’ve been having at chruch while our Pastor is on sabbatical for a month. I’ll get to those tonight or tomorrow; one covers Jonah and “What if,” the other covers Eph 6:10-20 and “Being IN Christ & Ready for Battle”, then the other is “The Hardest Person to Discipline”from II Tim. 1:7. They all are beconning me to run through them again and revisit where God spoke to me.
Also, to update on my friend who I gave the Bible to… to quote her on Thursday, she said “I LOVE IT!” How awesome is that & I can just see God’s grin over her widening!!! I can feel Him taking the Bible and holding it open for her! She said she began in the NT and loved the translation and ease of flow of the words and that it was “so easy” to read, and then with the Life Application notes, she said it helped her to understand more in depth. Then when I saw her on Friday, she said that she felt the magnitude of the gift as something she could never repay, and I said that is God’s gift to us exactly. She said she started reading Ruth the night before, and she was looking forward to continuing reading and finding answers. I said that’s all that He wants for us. So, I’m knowing that He has been preparing her for this very moment in time, and I feel that God also used this to edify and exhort me as well. He deposited greatly within me a desire to seek Him further, and to actively pursue His heart for myself and for others.
David, from The Apologetic Response writes onDo Mormons have “another Jesus?”… it’s an insightful read for those of you who are so inclined to understand their religion.
In reading, David writes on understanding the Trinity, he says:
I cannot tell you where I first heard this quote or who first coined it but it bears repeating, “Every theological heresy begins with a misconception of the nature of God.” I have also heard it said that “we may not be able to comprehend the Trinity, but we can apprehend it.” That is to say, our finite human minds cannot comprehend the infinite mind of Almighty God. Why can we not comprehend the Trinity? Because we have no frame of reference of the infinite. We do however have a frame of reference for the finite, which is why we can apprehend the Trinity. Here are some classical examples of how we can apprehend the Trinity: The Shamrock: Is it one leaf or three. If one, why are there three lobes of equal size? If three, why is there only one stem? It is both 1 and 3 at the same time. Water: Is it solid (ice), liquid (water), or gas (steam)? It is 1 and 3 at the same time. Mankind: Are we bodies, mind or spirit? We are one and three at the same time. The Universe: Is it made of time? – Yes ; space? – Yes ; dimension (or matter)? – Yes. All three are distinct and individual elements yet none can exist without the other. Again, we have 3 in 1.
I had only heard of the water analogy, and not the others, so it was awesome to gain more ways to apprehend the Trinity. I had heard of describing the Trinity as in the way of an apple, with the core, then fleshy part you eat, and the skin. It’s acutally in a childrens book titled “3 in 1 – A Picture of God” by Joanne Marxhausen.
Anyway, good reading David, thanks for sharing and illuminating truths! : D
I’m going to stop drinking sodas, and for most, this wouldn’t seem very hard, but for me, a few diet cokes everyday help and truly refresh. It’s just that it’s getting to be a problem, I think one hot day last week, I drank 6 cans of diet cokes in one day. Stop the madness! That is completely unnecessary, but somehow it happened, and I think I just need to stop soda’s cold turkey. I love them for the caffiene, but do I really need them? Doubtful. I haven’t even mentioned how much we are spending on sodas every week at the store… at least $10-$13 dollars on diet coke every week for my dh and I to be supplied anytime we want to go to the fridge.
So, adios diet coke….. I’m really going to miss you. Hello water… please help me not to miss my dearly departed diet coke. ; [
