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Greetings…. today presented itself much the same as other days, but I can rejoice in the fact that I got more sleep because my little Alec didn’t wake me up with crying over a wet diaper, or wanting “milky”, which we are trying to eliminate. He is 2 1/2 yrs. old after all, about time to be off of his bottle, right? Since he was number 2 in the line-up, and last, I think we’ve let him keep it a little longer than we maybe should have, but you know the saying… “woulda, shoulda, coulda…”
I’m growing in my walk with the Lord, and feeling His guidance in deepening my passion for prayer, as well as my knowledge of His Word. I feel that I still have so much to learn, and that everyday I start off with the feeling of “where do I start?” I know He has me in a season of being a mother to my two children, so my devotional time is often limited until my kids go to bed. I am daily elated to be led by the Spirit, knowing that I have so many opportunities to catch a glimpse of my purpose, but I also feel that at times, the mish-mash of other thoughts obscure my vision of those very glimpses. I know that the Spirit will rewind the things I am meant to understand if I don’t hear them the first time, especially while I am trying to train my heart to discern His voice.
+++Lord deepen my intimacy with you, so that more understanding will be revealed to me regarding the future of my path and my service to You. Please equip me with the space needed in my brain and heart to retain Your Word that I’ve read, so that I can saturate my life with the truth they posess. Fill my heart to overflowing with Your Word Lord so that I can “Out of abundance of the heart, the mouth speaks.” (Matt 12:34) Please sustain Your Word in my heart so that it can season my speech and make all that I say represent Your love. Continue to nurture my walk with You, so that I can deepen my faith and spiritual maturity, so that I can be Your tool here, so that You Lord, can use me as You see necessary in reaching out to others in Your flock who You seek. I know Lord that Your timetable for things in my life are perfect, please help me to be patient in my own growth, knowing that You are guiding me as You desire. I am riding my learning curve, and I surrender to You Lord to determine the speed. I’m seeing so much here and there Lord, so many things from my past are making a greater sense, and I pray that you continue to help the pieces of the puzzle fit together. I sometimes feel I’m lacking an attentiveness to the Spirit’s guidance, when the business of motherhood throughout the day surrounds me, but I know that my kids are my season, spring, youth, learning. I feel like through them Lord, I see that I am too a young child just seeing that I’m in Your love, and grace. Oh, Your grace Lord, I’m so thankful. Thank You for Your awesome Son… what a GIFT. I pray Lord that you seek after members of my family who don’t know You, draw them to you, give them a deep thirst and hunger to find answers that ONLY YOU can provide and quench through the gift of Christ. Help me again to be content with Your timetable for drawing them unto Yourself. You know Lord…. You have already seen thier surrender to You… I am just elated to see it as well, for I want them to be filled as I am with the knowledge of Your grace. All my faith is in You Lord. In Jesus name I pray Lord… Amen.+++
hugs…
Today, read Romans 8:28 “And we know that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose.”
Reminds me of the old lady on a commercial I’ve seen say “It’s all good.” It’s all a daily & hourly reminder that everything that He does, everything that is currently going on in my life and world, is all happening for a reason. I may not know for what now, but I can rest knowing that He does! He’s my cheerleader with a sweater on it that has big big letter “M” on the front and He has pom-poms shakin’ to cheer me on! I mean, how awesome is that?
Still, it’s a daily process of Him unfolding to me His love and understanding, and I know that I will still only have a glimpse at to His depth. His breadth, length, and height and depth are always going to surpass my knowledge. Ephesians 3:18-19.
My thoughts often scatter in the clutter of my mind, but hopefully this process of journaling it, will help me to see and track the process of understanding and feeling His powerful love from the inside-out. The Spirit speaks to me in whispers that I need to learn to quiet myself to hear, and “tune in” from between the station static.
hugs,
monica
Well, I suppose everyone has their first blog post that is a little lame, so here’s mine. I am starting this to just have an online journal. I’m miserable at keeping a real journal that involves actual writing, because my mind will spin faster at times than my hand can keep up with. Naturally it would improve with practice, but this seems like so much more a fun answer, not to mention that others can read along. That seems so interesting to me, someone else reading along. Like who? Why? I guess it’s kinda like overhearing someone elses conversation, except this conversation is merely what’s going on in my head and heart. ; )
Well, let me get this show on the road, and publish my first post to my own blog site to make it official.
smiles,
monica
